I'm Afraid of the Internet

Now that I've (just) started this blog... I am not sure that I should be doing this at all. I miss seeing people, but I kind of hate most forms of social interaction filtered through technology. I get anxious about answering the phone, I dread calling my voicemail, I feel unpleasantly burdened by emails and messages on facebook that I haven't had time to respond to. I love getting postcards and letters, but that too is clouded by anxiety about responding in time and with enthusiasm. I hardly have enough words for all the people I miss and would like to be in better contact with, so how do I have time or words enough to journal out-loud to the internet? Well and I suppose I have [grinnellplans] too for outloud journaling that is not available to the internet in general... It just makes me feel this mixture of embarrassment and sadness. Oh well.